A Blog for Conflicted Women

I feel like something is missing, and I can’t put my finger on it. Do you ever feel that way? So I’m considering starting a new blog targeted towards women in their 40’s, 50’s, and beyond – a blog that simply discusses the challenges, thoughts, desires – whatever- that some (if not most) of us experience as we age.

As for me, I feel like there’s a hole I need to plug. I’m looking into meditation, yoga, music, writing – various things to ease that feeling. They go in waves, these odd feelings. Some days they’re wispy, some days they’re an anvil.

Scotch, cigars, pipes, rediscovering Sherlock Holmes, listening to Mozart and Bach … ethereal things I’m enjoying on this journey.

Come join me.

Being Yourself

You don’t have to have the best voice to sing your song.

You don’t have to be a published author to tell your story.

You don’t have to achieve the highest grades to prove you’re smart.

You don’t have to have the highest paying job to feel satisfied with your work.

You don’t need to attend church regularly to prove your faith.

All you need is passion in all you do, a solid belief in yourself, and a thankful spirit for all you have no matter how little or how much it may be.

Be the one who is thankful for the gifts you have received, for the life you’ve been given, and for all you have accomplished.

Take time to see the beauty of the world around you. Accept that others think and learn differently than you do. Accept the faults of the world and contribute whatever you can to making the world better (not just monetarily but by your unselfish deeds as well).

Constantly learn.


Life is an endless cycle of learning. Whether we realize it or not, we are always learning something. It could be something as simple as a new recipe or a new way to apply make-up or wear a scarf. It could be something as grand as writing a new song, coming up with an idea for a book or invention – or even realizing that something we’ve been hoping for has just been dropped on our front door.

Don’t ignore the signs. Don’t miss your opportunity to soar.

Return from Hiatus

My nephew Mike, bless his soul, sent me a Twitter text and asked me where my blog posts have been. Thanks for nudging me, Mike!

I’ve been taking an unplanned hiatus from blogging, a little overwhelmed lately with some family and personal issues. I felt like I want to reach out to someone, to bounce ideas off someone, but I didn’t know who that “someone” was. Very frustrating. Plus I felt that whatever I might have said in a blog may have been something I shouldn’t have said. Maybe that doesn’t make sense. I used to be able to bounce ideas off a friend I had a while ago. But that friend turned out to be someone who had self-serving rules of what constitutes friendship, and after 10 years of being friends, I had to walk away. Chalk it up to the process of frustration elimination.

It’s been a very emotional year so far. One of my aunts has been diagnosed with lung cancer. One of my cousins (a few years younger than me) had a stroke, and while they don’t know what caused the stroke yet, they found a brain tumor. Another aunt (who I’ve always considered more of a cousin than an aunt because she’s the same age as me) was just diagnosed with COPD and asthma. Another cousin who is my age had bypass surgery several months ago. One of my younger cousins passed away suddenly earlier this year. I’d say they’re dropping like flies, but that sounds crude, so I won’t say it. And things haven’t been going all so well for Josh either. He’s been having his share of this bad year too.

There has been a convergence of not-so-wonderful things happening. It’s all very unnerving.

But on the brighter side …

Deb and Mike, my sister and brother-in-law, visited last month. Let me tell you, I’d been waiting 13 years to see them pull into the driveway, and when they did, I started crying – not bawling, but tears of happiness. I was overwhelmed with emotion. I wanted to hold onto them and not let them go back home. It was great spending time with them, talking, going to the Renaissance Festival, catching up. Yes, we talk on the phone just about every Sunday, but it’s not the same as face-to-face time.

I want (need) to take a road trip to Chicago soon (although it probably won’t happen until after March) to see the family (including Ms. Mia Zatanna Knol) and to bring back some of the fabulous Chicago culinary experience. Just to name a few food items – authentic Chicago style hot dogs (including real hot dog relish in jars I can bring home), Italian beef, Don’s Dock fish chips, Tortorice’s pizza (my favorite), Green River, Pagliacci Giardiniera, and maybe some German potato salad from Kuhn’s Deli. Ahhhhh … can’t wait!

I have a take-away for you …

Don’t be afraid of the future. Don’t let the bad events of the past prevent you from finding your own happiness in the here and now or in the future. Hold onto those who love you and those whom you love, because you can never know just how long they will be in your life. Don’t take them for granted! Share your dreams, your life, with someone who “gets” you. It’s worth everything!

And Now a Few Words …

Okay, maybe more than “a few” … some thoughts and concepts …

~ You will never “find the time”; you have to “make the time.”

~ I suck when it comes to figuring out where to put punctuation in relation to quotation marks. Anyone else have that issue? Any pointers (something I’ll remember)?

~ It’s impossible to grow old gracefully when you’re working around a bunch of 20- and 30-somethings. Nope, it ain’t gonna happen. All you can think about is your graying hair and your expanding waistline.

~ Some of the best thunderstorms pass through in the middle of the night when you’re asleep. Sometimes you get lucky and a loud clap of thunder will wake you just in time for the storm’s end.

~ You’re never too old to learn something; you simply have to be open to the pssibility that there’s a better ( or faster, or less expensive) way to do something you’ve done all your life.

Expect more of this as my brain exudes thoughts …